Self esteem is something a lot of people (myself included) need to practice to get good at.
For me, I had to realize I’m insignificant to most people to start being myself more. That and doing things. Like, anything you do, whether you love it or not, is better than doomscrolling.
You probably recognize you need to practice to get good at literally anything else. Why would socializing be an exception. Don’t compare yourself to others, compare yourself to you yesterday.
For me, I am aware that I’m insignificant, and that’s the main reason why I’m not doing anything in life.
Sadly there’s a finite amount of people you can piss off before having to move to a different area.
What it I don’t want to do that? Shit, if it’s work related even that might not save you because people ask for references.
At least Other skills you can practice for as long as you have the money.
Well, if it weren’t for my shyness and lack of self-esteem, I wouldn’t be on course to be officially more virgin than Jesus of Nazareth
I guess you mean joseph :p
My boss keeps telling me how much better I will do in the office because I will make so many more connections but she forgets that I have social anxiety and it’s extremely stressful and I never connected with anyone before we started working from home. Social people just don’t understand.
That’s honestly why I’m glad I worked a couple in-office jobs before working remote jobs. I know that working remotely works better for me.
Gotta say, this one hits home for me.
Someone sent me a really old photo today from 9th grade with my much more handsome younger self and a cute girl with her arms wrapped around me.
Reminded me of when women used to throw themselves at me when I was that age but I was deathly afraid of doing anything. I didn’t kiss my first girlfriend for a month.
The one time I had 2 promiscuous girls sleep in my bed with me in like 10th grade and I did nothing is permanently seared into my memory.
I’m 35 now and single and that just doesn’t happen anymore. Not sure if it’s because I aged poorly or because they’re all just married with kids at this point.
Least you didn’t knock a girl up in 10th grade. There’s worse things that could have happened. And 30s are not kind to people that don’t have the energy to be outgoing
Ha, that’s true. The girlfriend I did have got knocked up the moment we separated.
On a whim I called a free therapy help line from a poster at work.
I never initiate interactions with anyone unless it’s required, I only ever respond because I am terrified of ruining someone else’s day by forcing them to deal with me. The idea that I might annoy or bother someone is terrifying and nauseating, so I just… don’t do it.
In talking with the therapist, we made a connection between this neurotic impulse and my dysphoria. I started my transition at 29 (lol), so I have almost two decades of hating the way I look and sound (and feel and act and dress and). I suspect that I projected this dysphoria onto everyone else too, subconsciously assuming everyone else hated the way I look and sound as much as I do. Now that I’m a few years into my transition and I don’t feel that way anymore, I’m slowly learning to stop projecting that onto everyone else too! Slowly. 😅
-sigh- my life in a picture
Same
I’ve lost my job over panic attacks and anxiety. No one takes me seriously because crippling anxiety is now a social media buzzphrase that’s devalued the mental illness for those of us who actually suffer with it.
I know the feeling, most think I’m lonely but it’s the complete opposite.
All I need are video games and steam friends
https://canvas.toast.ooo is still for a few hours i think
All I need are my tavernai friends
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