30 year old male, divorced last year after 9 years. Got dumped because I drink too much apparently. She was supposed to move back to her home country but ended up staying in this city.
I’m a member of the music scene and so is she so all my friends are her friends. So naturally because I’m not the pretty one, she gets all sympathy and I’m now a lonely motherfucker rejected by a lot of people I once called friends.
She hooked up with a dude who is an actual drug addict and last night. While trying to watch the band, they’re making out like 5ft behind me. I shouldnt care because these people are quite literally losers compared to me but I guess I’m jealous someone cares about her and nobody cares about me.
When I went home last night alone I actually thought about ending things. I don’t really know what to do going forwards. Do I just end my hobby of music because I can’t deal with my jealousy? Every gig she is there and she’s got a line of guys wanting to be with her while I’m left to rot alone.
Should I sell my house and quit my job and move? That’s what I was up all night pondering. I feel as if this place is too small for the both of us, and she won.
Nah living in a big city is fucking horrible. I would go insane.
Yeah working on the booze. Cutting back hasn’t really been noticeably better, I’ll probably just quit then even though it’s something I really enjoy.
Mid sized city is my preference. I like having restaurants, concerts, walking to work, small town I find insular, too cliquish.
But working on yourself makes the most sense, for sure. You’d have to do that wherever you go.
I do wish you the best.
OK yeah when I think small city I’m thinking like 25000 or less. That would be perfect.
My city is about 200k and it’s actually bigger than I like despite what I complained about in the OP haha